The anniversary of the loss of my Mom to a car accident at the age of forty-two was twenty-six years ago tomorrow. For many years I would spend this day sad and still mourning the loss of someone I hardly knew.
The relationship I had with my Mom was a hard one. If you have followed my blog long I have written about it before, check it out if you are new here, (My Mom was a bad, Mom but I loved her! ) She was also the person who I wanted to love me the most.
I decided last year after putting off God for so many years with what He had planned for me (i.e. writing and speaking), I was going to change the meaning of the anniversary of losing my Mom.
It would no longer stand for:
-Losing her just at a time we could be friends.
-Walking away from God in anger and hate.
-The loss of my family support.
-My beginning of a life in drugs.
I wanted it to stand for something new! Yes, it would still have all of those attached to the anniversary, but I have the power to change what I focus on.
So on October 5, 2012 became the official day I called myself a writer! I finally obeyed Gods call, check out (You have to start somewhere!), my very first blog.
I have to say for it only being one year, a lot has happen when I look back. What God has done, WOW, I feel amazed He has used me to do it!
Last year I didn’t know what or where this would take me, and I still don’t. I have gone from sitting in a room with a note book, a pen, a bunch of jumbled ideas in my head, to having a plan and a direction.
I have started a book about my attempt of suicide. Wrote my first book proposal, met with three publishers face to face, and didn’t throw up,(yay for me)! All of them gave me some great feed back on my story. “It is worth writing” is what they had to say. One of the publishers even kept my book proposal and e-mailed a few weeks later. She let me know it was a top notch proposal and a great story, just not for their house but keep looking, don’t give up.
I started this blog to build my platform because you have to have a platform to get published now-a-days. I read a lot on how to build your following and increase your numbers. I wanted to do it all today as you can see in (I’ve Been Suspended and Blocked). If you try to do it by just hitting people over the head it won’t work.
You have to put the time in and build the relationship with the people that follow you. Read their stuff get to know who they are and let them get to know you, which is what I have learned in the last six months of my blog. If you look at some of the top bloggers numbers you will see they have been around a while.
More important; I write because God has a plan and words for me to say. Sometimes they are not the words you would think a pastor’s wife would say. I am real and hold nothing back, life has dealt me some crap and I made some of my own. With God’s grace I want to show the world His forgiveness will heal all pain and is worth all it costs. This is nothing but surrendering to Him!
So tomorrow I will not be mourning my Mom or even writing I will be helping to wash some cars to raise money for a little girl who has leukemia, her family could use some help. If you would like to help you can to Gofundme.
See ya next time.