Over the last two years there have been so many changes in my life that it is hard to know what to say about it all.
Have all the changes been good?
I would have to say that it has been a rough road to travel, so many new things in my world. Some good and some not so good.
It is hard to find balance sometimes as the world around you changes.
You need to find firm footing. You may ask were do you find that, well it is only with my Lord and Savior that I have even made it to this point in life, so He is the one I look to for understanding when life is hard.
I can only speak for myself but I know that with out God in my life I could not get out of bed each day.
This world that we live in is hard, life is hard. As we face the struggles of each day living with family, work, health and the world. It can grow heavy on your heart to know what you can change and what you need to learn to cope with.
I PRAY FIRST, I am unable to stand on my own and wouldn’t want to. I tried life on my own and ended up trying to take my life. So I will pray first and trust in God to lead me where I should go.
That is all I got for now, Peace out!
I know that today is Thanksgiving and this is not what you would think I would be doing today but it is.
Let me explain a few things with our family, years ago as our daughters started getting married we changed the day that this family celebrates Thanksgiving. We do it on Saturday after the real day so that maybe just maybe everyone can be there.
As your family grows up and out it makes it harder and harder to get them all home for the holidays. So I came up with this plan to change the date so they can spend Thanksgiving with who ever they would like, just come on over for dinner on Saturday.
this has worked for years, I have gotten to have all of my four children and all of my 6 grand babies plus extended family like nieces and nephews here for one great day.
Well this year we will be lacking a few people, not all of the kids can make it because of jobs and things. Non of the nieces and nephews will be able to make.. We are in hopes of all getting together for Christmas which will be in late January. Yes we reschedule that one too.
So the point of this post is not that we are odd and move Holiday, but that we are buying a house and I can’t find our W-2 for 2014.
I know two years ago right, but you don’t understand I can find every pay stub for that year if you asked me what I bought on may 12th 2014 I could tell you I have the receipts for everything that I have ever spent money on for the last 10 years.
Yes that is nuts.
The one peace of paper that I need I can’t find.
Yes I can get a new one from a few places and I will, but it just escapes me of where it could have gone.
I may need an interventions to help me get throw this.
What the heck I think I will go shopping now…….
It is hard for me to reach out and say that I need help. There are so many people that want or need something from me, how do I say “help me”.
As as pastors wife, life is hard you can’t speak of your needs for it shows how human you are. And we all know that a pastor’s wife is above it all and can handle all things right!
Not, I am just as much a woman trying to figure out this life as you are, I am just under the microscope each day and not meeting your needs.
I have not shared much on my blog in the last year because I am afraid that it will have a side ways affect on what my husband had been called to do. Which is to preach God’s word and to grow His kingdom. Not to please man and tickle your ears to make you feel good.
To make an impacted on this town, this neighborhood, this Church for God the only way we know how, by loving people. It may not look like what you have seen in the past our what you are use to. It is from the heart.
I now live in the desert in more ways than one, I have followed my husband and believe this is God’s calling for our lives. Because that is my calling, to follow my husband in all things and to give God all the glory.
I know that I have not been writing much lately, okay not at all that I have shared with you. I know that I have been called to this new place to do good works for the glory of God. It is just trying to understand what those works are to be, is the hard part. Plus fitting in to a new community and a church family with all new rules has been hard for me.
So I will admit that I have been doing all kinds of stuff that I could say is for the Lord, but I know it is not. I do not want to be one of those people on the last day that God tells me He does not know me because I have been to busy running to and fro doing His so called works.
Sorry just a note to say, almost six months in the desert will help you see things clearly. God bless.
Anyone who knows me knows that change is one of the things that I like the least in life. God knows this about me, but wants to grow me in him so he has required many changes in my life over the last few years. I know that it is for His glory and for my growth in Him. I have to be real with you it is hard, down right hard, I what to give it all up at times. The more I give the more I am required to take with a smile on my face. I know that God has a plan and I will survive, this too will pass but the pain I feel is all the same today, please pray.
Thank you for giving me a moment to be weak.