Why have my dreams or the plans that God has for my life never grown into the day. They still hide in the night in my heart where God places these dreams.
I have let them out a few times and the response was fair. So it is not that I believe I am unable to fulfill the dream that God has given me.
In truth, I am afraid.
I did not speak my first words to the world and have people begging to hear more. I know that a great speaker is not born but grown.
I can’t even say that I have been hiding behind by husband as he dreams and grows. That I have given up my dreams to support his. No that is not it, I have fear in my heart!
What do I fear?
I hear the words of my earthly father telling me I will never be good enough and that I am fat and ugly.
These words even thou I know there were spoken by a man who had so much hate in is heart and drank himself to the point of death so many times should not have any power over my life. Even today as I think about them they still have the power to bring me to tears.
We are all made beautiful by God.
Satan does not want me to know that and to hold that in my heart over the words of my father. If I stay that frighten young woman Satan wins and I have not fulfilled God’s plan in my life.
This is what I needed to purge from my heart and mind before I write my message for next Sunday. It will be only the second time I have spoken as a pastor. I know God has plans for me He has shown me in my dreams.
That’s it thanks for reading.
There is a new song that is out there that is called Forgiven by David Crowder if you have not heard it you so need to look it up on Youtube.
This song speaks of how it felt to hold the nail in his hands as he nailed Jesus to the cross, it was cold. The weight of the hammer in his hand and the look on Jesus’s face of forgiveness. It is a wow moment for me each time I hear this song because it is my sin that did nail Him to the cross and He would have done it just for me.
There are so many times that we forget that we are forgiven that we have the honor of forgiveness if we have asked for it. Psalms 103:12-13 tells us “As far as the east is from the west, so far has He remove our transgressions from us. And the our Father has compassion on His children.”
Are we able to do the same for those that we need to forgive?
No, we are human and can not forget the wrongs or unjust actions that have been done agaist us. We are able to forgive those that have done these acts and need to for our own well being and happiness.
It does not even matter if the person knows or acknowledges you feel the need to forgive them. In many cases they may have no understanding that you feel wronged by them. Also some people are just not able to speak of the past.
So what do you do with these feeling? You let them go! Forgive and be done. It is really between you and God anyways. He wants to heal your heart and make you whole. When you carry the burdens of unforgiveness in your heart it is a encumbersome heavy load that will weigh you down.
Well that is all I have for you today, love yourself and others. See ya next time.
Many times over my years in ministry I have said or heard others speak these words. “I am not being fed here.” I know when I spoke those very words I had the feeling that I was not getting out of church what I should have been. I was walking away after services with more criticism in my head and heart. All kinds of things that had bugged me that day the worship just didn’t do anything for me, or did the pastor really wear that! How come that person got to be prayed for and not me. (I didn’t ask, they should just know I need pray, Right!)
The question I have to ask myself and you should check in yourself. Are you going to Church or to Gods word hungry? Is your need to hear what God would say to you like the hunger pains from not eating, the empty pit will growl to get your attention. Your empty heart will be filled with criticism of those around you if you are not hungry for God’s voice.
What does it look like to be hungry for God?
I think it is expecting to see God in everything that we do, not looking to the people around us to provide the food. God has placed the food in front of you and I we need to come to the table hungry for what He has prepared for us. If we are hungry when we come to Him we will eat of the good things He has for us.
Yesterday I was having one of those mornings were you are running all around to get ready for the day, and I was out of sorts not feeling peace at all in live. I am shotgun shooting out prays but not taking the time to stop and pray. When I got in the car the radio was playing a song that I have heard many times before. Today it hit my heart like the hand of God was holding me in his arms. I cried most of the way to work.
God knows when we are to full to hear what He would speak to your heart. We allow so many things to take His place as first. I am not saying that you have to spend hours in His word each day to be hungry. I can’t even meet that standard. If I am looking to See God I will find Him in everything around me.
Prayer: God give me a heart that is hungry for you, help me to see You in all things. Wipe away the things that are distracting me from seeing You at work in my life Lord. All God’s people say AMEN!
Have a great day, see ya
I know many things in life,
I know that I am loved by God,
I know that I am His daughter,
I know He has set the plans for me,
I know that I have not used my gifts for His glory,
I know He is pulling on my heart to be real, not only with myself but with you.
Yesterday I was blessed by getting the chance to be at the 110th anniversary of the Azusa street revival held at the Los Angeles Coliseum. The event was called AzusaNow. If you want to be blessed beyond belief, look it up on God TV or YouTube. This is a picture of a group of people around a man down on on field after been healed. He was in a wheelchair. We watched as the small group prayed for this man, he stood up but did not walk. They continued to pray and he stood again and took a step or two and was back down. This went on for more than an hour and a half, the whole time the small group was not giving up on him and he is not giving in to doubt. Mind you, we are all worshiping and praying with that small group as the program goes on around them. Then the crowd breaks out in a roar as the man is up and walking without help!!!!! Not just one or two steps but walking across the field, really moving by his own two feet.
Now I know some will not believe that this can be real and say that it is not so. That is okay. I know in my heart that my Heavenly Father can heal….
One of the most important questions is, ‘Do we want to be healed?’ Some are where they are for a reason and a season. Then you have some that are afraid to surrender, or admit they even have a need of healing. Even with all that I witnessed yesterday and all that I know to be true of my Father in heaven, I did not ask, I did not surrender to the call for prayer. Why? That is for a different day. But for today, know that I walked out of that coliseum like someone leaving Survivor with a idle in their pocket!
No matter what the world thinks of you, ask for prayer, seek Gods face.