Many times over my years in ministry I have said or heard others speak these words. “I am not being fed here.” I know when I spoke those very words I had the feeling that I was not getting out of church what I should have been. I was walking away after services with more criticism in my head and heart. All kinds of things that had bugged me that day the worship just didn’t do anything for me, or did the pastor really wear that! How come that person got to be prayed for and not me. (I didn’t ask, they should just know I need pray, Right!)
The question I have to ask myself and you should check in yourself. Are you going to Church or to Gods word hungry? Is your need to hear what God would say to you like the hunger pains from not eating, the empty pit will growl to get your attention. Your empty heart will be filled with criticism of those around you if you are not hungry for God’s voice.
What does it look like to be hungry for God?
I think it is expecting to see God in everything that we do, not looking to the people around us to provide the food. God has placed the food in front of you and I we need to come to the table hungry for what He has prepared for us. If we are hungry when we come to Him we will eat of the good things He has for us.
Yesterday I was having one of those mornings were you are running all around to get ready for the day, and I was out of sorts not feeling peace at all in live. I am shotgun shooting out prays but not taking the time to stop and pray. When I got in the car the radio was playing a song that I have heard many times before. Today it hit my heart like the hand of God was holding me in his arms. I cried most of the way to work.
God knows when we are to full to hear what He would speak to your heart. We allow so many things to take His place as first. I am not saying that you have to spend hours in His word each day to be hungry. I can’t even meet that standard. If I am looking to See God I will find Him in everything around me.
Prayer: God give me a heart that is hungry for you, help me to see You in all things. Wipe away the things that are distracting me from seeing You at work in my life Lord. All God’s people say AMEN!
Have a great day, see ya
I know that today is Thanksgiving and this is not what you would think I would be doing today but it is.
Let me explain a few things with our family, years ago as our daughters started getting married we changed the day that this family celebrates Thanksgiving. We do it on Saturday after the real day so that maybe just maybe everyone can be there.
As your family grows up and out it makes it harder and harder to get them all home for the holidays. So I came up with this plan to change the date so they can spend Thanksgiving with who ever they would like, just come on over for dinner on Saturday.
this has worked for years, I have gotten to have all of my four children and all of my 6 grand babies plus extended family like nieces and nephews here for one great day.
Well this year we will be lacking a few people, not all of the kids can make it because of jobs and things. Non of the nieces and nephews will be able to make.. We are in hopes of all getting together for Christmas which will be in late January. Yes we reschedule that one too.
So the point of this post is not that we are odd and move Holiday, but that we are buying a house and I can’t find our W-2 for 2014.
I know two years ago right, but you don’t understand I can find every pay stub for that year if you asked me what I bought on may 12th 2014 I could tell you I have the receipts for everything that I have ever spent money on for the last 10 years.
Yes that is nuts.
The one peace of paper that I need I can’t find.
Yes I can get a new one from a few places and I will, but it just escapes me of where it could have gone.
I may need an interventions to help me get throw this.
What the heck I think I will go shopping now…….
I know many things in life,
I know that I am loved by God,
I know that I am His daughter,
I know He has set the plans for me,
I know that I have not used my gifts for His glory,
I know He is pulling on my heart to be real, not only with myself but with you.
It is hard for me to reach out and say that I need help. There are so many people that want or need something from me, how do I say “help me”.
As as pastors wife, life is hard you can’t speak of your needs for it shows how human you are. And we all know that a pastor’s wife is above it all and can handle all things right!
Not, I am just as much a woman trying to figure out this life as you are, I am just under the microscope each day and not meeting your needs.
I have not shared much on my blog in the last year because I am afraid that it will have a side ways affect on what my husband had been called to do. Which is to preach God’s word and to grow His kingdom. Not to please man and tickle your ears to make you feel good.
To make an impacted on this town, this neighborhood, this Church for God the only way we know how, by loving people. It may not look like what you have seen in the past our what you are use to. It is from the heart.
I now live in the desert in more ways than one, I have followed my husband and believe this is God’s calling for our lives. Because that is my calling, to follow my husband in all things and to give God all the glory.