Why have my dreams or the plans that God has for my life never grown into the day. They still hide in the night in my heart where God places these dreams.
I have let them out a few times and the response was fair. So it is not that I believe I am unable to fulfill the dream that God has given me.
In truth, I am afraid.
I did not speak my first words to the world and have people begging to hear more. I know that a great speaker is not born but grown.
I can’t even say that I have been hiding behind by husband as he dreams and grows. That I have given up my dreams to support his. No that is not it, I have fear in my heart!
What do I fear?
I hear the words of my earthly father telling me I will never be good enough and that I am fat and ugly.
These words even thou I know there were spoken by a man who had so much hate in is heart and drank himself to the point of death so many times should not have any power over my life. Even today as I think about them they still have the power to bring me to tears.
We are all made beautiful by God.
Satan does not want me to know that and to hold that in my heart over the words of my father. If I stay that frighten young woman Satan wins and I have not fulfilled God’s plan in my life.
This is what I needed to purge from my heart and mind before I write my message for next Sunday. It will be only the second time I have spoken as a pastor. I know God has plans for me He has shown me in my dreams.
That’s it thanks for reading.