The Battle Within!

 

wounded not broken

Just feel I needed share this one again with updates.

The battle begins each new day anew, I grow weary of fighting.

The voices in my head tell me I deserve better, why do I have to work so hard,

How come we don’t have more money, why don’t we get to take nice vacations? We have earned them.

If he really loved me, he would give me all these things. Maybe there is someone else? That would explain why he doesn’t want me.

This is a battle that is fought within on a spiritual level one the enemy of each one of us will try to win each day.

If the enemy can get us to believe even just one of these things, even for a moment or something like the example above, then he has a foot hold on us and in our relationships.

If before we even get out of bed and even have a word with our husbands the enemy (Satan) has already whispered in our ear that we deserve better, how does that set the tone for the day?

Will we jump out of bed, look at our husbands, and think; WOW! I love you, sweet heart. Or will we look and see where he no longer is the guy we married so many years ago.

Now be careful, the enemy doesn’t play favorites, he is whispering in his mind too, saying; WOW! Boy has she let herself go, is she really going to wear that again.

Now he’s thinking; can’t wait to get to work were they appreciate me, and don’t think I’m so stupid.

See even as a pastor I had let the enemy get a hold of my thoughts, my prayers had become useless and selfish.

When I would pray for my marriage I would pray; God fix what is wrong with my husband, make him a better man, and help him to give me what I need, be the man I want him to be.

I would hope I’m not the only women in the world to pray a selfish pray. God doesn’t answer those kinds of prayers, and the enemy knows it.

It just gives the enemy a stronger foot hold in your life; you are now cut off from your life support, no longer hearing from God on the one subject you are crying out to Him on and what you are listening to are lies from the enemy.

So, in December of 2012, I had been listening to the lies so long and was becoming someone who was hard to love.  God was still the King in our home; and before it all fell apart, we got help! The first thing we had to do was take EVERY THOUGHT INTO CAPTIVITY! 1 Cor. 3:10

Know they are lies from the enemy sent to destroy you! To make you cheat on your family, to spend more than you make; to work longer than is healthy, and to eat more than is satisfying.

So that was step one and step two was to put the other person’s needs above your own.

I have to say, that was really hard to do at the time; when you don’t really like someone right now, to put their needs first is hard.

Now don’t get me wrong, just because I am saying that I didn’t like Scott at that time doesn’t mean I didn’t still love him with all my heart. For me it is two different things.

That was almost two years ago, and I am happy to say that with God’s grace my marriage is stronger now then it has ever been. I am no longer afraid to speak out and say what I feel….even if it is not what he would like to hear.

We have graduated from marriage counseling and have moved on to help on others, to be God all the glory amen!

Update and when you forget to keep up with all of the above you have to do it all over again in 2020!

We are back on the right track now! Never be afraid to let people know you are not okay.

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To be satisfied!

Those who hunger and thirst for righteousness are blessed, for they will be filled. Matthew 5:6 HCSB https://bible.com/verse-of-the-day/mat.5.6/27101

This version says to be filled in others it says to be satisfied. The world has a different view of what it takes to be satisfied with life.

We need to have more do more be more.

Where God’s word tells us to hunger and thirst for righteousness and you will be filled.

Seek the right things!

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Accepting one another!

with all humility and gentleness, with patience, accepting one another in love, Ephesians 4:2 HCSB https://bible.com/verse-of-the-day/eph.4.2/2597

So many times we as Christians believe that if we accept someone right were they are, it’s give approval for were they are.

Not so, it is not our job to change their hearts and turn them to God. That is the job of the Holy Spirit.

Yet if we are humble and love them in the process we are an example of Gods love.

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Soar

but those who trust in the Lord will renew their strength; they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31 HCSB https://bible.com/verse-of-the-day/isa.40.31/46334

I want to soar on the wings of eagles, to walk in life with confidence that no matter what comes my way God has me.

I can have that, all I have to do is trust. For the longest time trust was the hardest word in my life. There had been so many reasons to not trust.

Once I came to the Lord and He asked me to trust Him I was afraid to.

God is a loving and faithful father that knew my fear and loved me anyways. Each day my willingness to trust grew.

He knows your fears too! Yet is waiting for you to trust.

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Use the tools you have been given.

For the word of God is living and effective and sharper than any double-edged sword, penetrating as far as the separation of soul and spirit, joints and marrow. It is able to judge the ideas and thoughts of the heart. Hebrews 4:12 HCSB https://bible.com/bible/72/heb.4.12.HCSB

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No fear here!

Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will hold on to you with My righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10 HCSB https://bible.com/verse-of-the-day/isa.41.10/51172

Do you believe this verse?

Or do you add requirements to it?

If I.. change, be a better person, you get the idea. So many times we read a verse with all of these wonderful promises from God, but we add if only I statements to it.

The only requirement is believe.

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